Anonymous
July 27, 2025 at 12:16:00 PM
this site and its contents seem really conducive to a sort of feeling thats partly abstracted by the past and latterally abstracted by how i feel now. i mean, its also that a lot of things came hand in hand to bring something together, but i dont think i would have felt this way if i hadnt thought to revisit this site again, especially during this moment. it was necessary, i can just leave it at that.
im sitting here for the first time in washington, port orchard (or something) and notably its so pitch black dark, with huge swathes of forestry and trees, and a complete lack of sound from any other objects or life; it puts forward a sort of absolute immersion in the moment. being alone with the internet and my computer, without any light other than the screen, reading a blog text or fidgeting with little widgets; the air of a passive parasociality (aswell as experience) that is usually rejected now, yet ironically was quite typical at a time long before now, especially when social contexts were less centralized and more scrappy. a lot of that is extrapolated by other things now like neocities or other self hosted sites, but i wasnt as receptive to it. yet i am in this moment; the idea of simply being in the void, and interacting with what is only infront of me, as if it was the whole world. i partly crave just that and nothing else, even if i could easily care about a lot else just as much.
despite being ill in a way that inclines me to very drastically isolate, i dont actually get much time alone; but for just this moment, a simple isolated, but still personal site, at this time of day, in this environemnt, captures something very specific.
maybe thats a lot of pedantic silly text for a guest book of someone i dont personally know? its at least neurotic . or something.
Replied on: July 28, 2025 at 2:14:23 AM
there's a certain comfort in seeing others try to relate indescribable feelings. no matter how many, no matter how fancy and no matter in what fashion you put words together, some things are beyond language. it's always welcome in such an isolated space.
it's even more comforting if you can understand them, in any capacity, in spite of that. enjoy your surroundings, or rather, the internal lack thereof.